Is there ever a sexy disease?

Feeling lousy (after crashing into a brick wall last week), I decided to start on beautification project. So, I decided to head to the doctor's office to remedy my skin irritation problem which had been plaguing me for a while. While waiting to be placed with a skin specialist, my doctor prescribed me a cream to ease my irritance for now.

After yoga, I headed down to the neighbourhood pharmacy to get my prescription filled. To assist me was a very cute Asian pharmacist - too bad I am not getting a prescription for a sexy disease. But is there really a sexy disease (I said sexy, not sex!).

Do's & Don'ts - The Spinter's Guide to Surviving Lonely Nights and Days

Do's

1. Do wear good underwear - always wear good underwear. If you are ever found lying unconscious alone in your apartment, at least you have good underwear on when the paramedics/firemen come to your rescue.
2. Do allow yourself to belt out the spinster theme song "All By Myself" - good cathartic release of pent-up energy.
3. Do yoga - it's my solution to all problems. Plus, it's the best substitute for sex (better than chocolate because it does not make you fat).
4. Do celebrate your own divinity - if you don't, who else would?
5. Do splurge on luxury bedding and lots of pillows - I feel safe cocooned by mountains of pillows.
6. Do chores (i.e. vacuuming) in sexy underwear - when else do you get to use those? Don't waste it - it's cooling to do chores in underwear.
7. Do blog - you still have a voice, put it out there.
8. Do self-indulge - treat yourself well.

Don'ts

1. Do not keep cats at home. In case you fall unconscious, the cats may eat your face.
2. Do not stuff your face in a tub of ice cream. Never let yourself go even if you feel undesirable - at the end of the day, you still have to look at yourself in the mirror and feel super hot.
3. Do not drink yourself silly (hmm...maybe unless you completely pass out from the consumption).
4. Do not watch romantic movies or tv shows - stop reminding yourself of that elusive prince who chose to frolic with the young'uns instead of finding his way to you.
5. Do not befriend the neighbour except for the sweet old friendly couple.
6. Do not let anyone tell you that you're a lesser being because you're partnerless.

No judgement please

I live my life the best way I know how - at times seem totally frivolous and self-indulgence. We all have different circumstances (none better than the other) - at the end of the day, all I want is to be serene and have a good night sleep. Reserve your judgement until you walk in my stilletoes or ballet flats - flying solo is not as easy as it seems.

Unexplained

I have spent much time frivolously trying to figure out how things in life really works - and my conclusion is simply: unexplained.

Uniquely favorable

"Tell your new friend something unique about yourself that you like" - when asked to do that before the start of yesterday's yoga class, I was stumped. I couldn't think of something unique about myself that I like. I had, however, a ready list of items that I don't like about myself. Sigh - how sad.

One day late, the unique quality that I like about myself is I still have my child-like curiousity.

My cheer-me up mantra

Here's my new cheer-me-up mantra:

I have food in my tummy and shelter over my head; everything else is icing on the cake.

Spirituality & the Corporate world

Spirituality is a BIG business - for instance, just look at the $$$ reaped in by the popularity of the "Secret" or the "New Earth".

I am however having a challenging time trying to fit my spirituality into the Corporate world. Each attempt I was reminded by the horror of my experience in business school. There was once in a business class, the instructor asked "what are we all striving for?" and when he looked at my direction, I answered "self actualization - be the very best that we can & each one of us is different in terms of our potential". Laughter bursted out across the room - of course encouraged by the smug instructor who responded "this is a business class, not a psych class".

So, when my boss asked me to think of goals that I would like to set for myself for the upcoming fiscal year - I doubt that my plan of "going with the flow of the Universe and let myself be pleasantly surprised" is not going to fly.

PS: Single people are entitled to happiness too

At a dinner party back in January, my dinner companions looked at me strangely because I was grinning from ear to ear. They proceeded to interrogate me and the first thing they asked was "so who's the new guy?" Umm - there was no new guy (and still no guy). Then they asked "why are you so happy?" Umm - perhaps it was because I had a pretty dress on and just about to have a delicious meal with interesting dinner company - not good enough reasons to be joyful?

PS - Single folks are fully capable of finding joy in things other than f$%# the next guy/girl.

An AHA - OMG moment....

I had a mind-blowing epiphany today (what I called a AHA-OMG moment). The mind-blowing epiphany I had was the revelation that my destiny (or journey in life) is predetermined by the Universe (or by God - the big force).
[This may be my last phase of sanity - before I go completely crazy - by society expectations]

The revelation is not a new concept. It was foreshadowed by a friend's tale of a visit to a Chinese fortune-teller. According to the Chinese fortune-teller, the life path is predetermined. Every being has a unique destiny. No two beings enter the Universe at the same moment and place, therefore no two beings have identical journeys. When she first told me about it, I didn't give it much thought.

I finally understood it all as a result of the events that unfolded today. I had been working on starting a special project for the last few weeks with much frustrations and a heck lot of disappointments. No matter what I did or how much I effort I put into it - somehow there was always something that stalled the start of the project. After abandoning the project for a week (without a break from trying to figure it out), I made a last ditch effort today in attempts to get the project started. All seems to be heading in the right direction until the last second when the project was called off again. That's when I had my Aha-OMG moment - no matter what I do, I was not destined to work on this special project. The great force (i.e. the Universe or God) is preventing my involvement in this special project. The reason the opportunity came into my life (but not being part of it - which seems very pointless at first) is that this was to reinforce the notion that my destiny is predetermined. Every time I stray away from the path, I was directed back by the great force.

The lesson that I learned is that my destiny is already mapped out for me the moment I entered the universe. Each time I tried to change my destiny I have experienced much frustrations and disappointments. Each time I went with the flow I have experienced ease and effortlessness.

What does this all mean? Does it mean that since my destiny is predetermined, I am just going to do nothing and give up? Absolutely not. I may not be able to change my destiny but every thing that I do or choose to be conscious of is guided by the force. Not knowing what comes next makes every moment in life so much more exciting. I try to be more conscious and aware of my surroundings and sensations that I experience because these may foreshadow what's to come. The way to live is to trust my gut instincts - it is the Universe whispering to me what my next move is. I am excited to be pleasantly surprised by the unfolding of events in my destiny. I'll continue to let my faith grow and wear cute underwear.

Talk about inspirational...

I admit I was slow in catching on to the phenomenon of "The Last Lecture" by Randy Pausch. I had heard about this for a while but never watched the lecture until a few minutes ago. If you have 76 mins 26 sec, watch it - if you don't, make time and watch it. It is truly inspiring.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ji5_MqicxSo

A tax reform I would like to see...

I would like to see a tax reform that favours the single people for a change. One where one gets a tax credit or at least a deudction for maintaining a household on a single income. A single person pays 100% of living costs on a single income whereareas a couple shares the costs on a double income. Fair? I think not. To make matters worse, a couple gets a spousal deduction (gasp!).