Pause & assess

I went to the chiropractor yesterday for monthly maintenance cracking and while getting checked out, the chiropractor found a lump above my right collar bone. He was a little concern about finding a lump where there shouldn't be any lumps and instructed me to head to the doctor's office the same day. Since my appointment was in the late afternoon, I was not able to make it to the doctor's office the same day. I did not think much of it initially but my chiropractor's concern slowly crept into my mind which started me thinking what if - what if I am terminally ill. It sure caused me to pause and took a quick assessment of my life at the moment - how satisfy I am with the way I have been living my life? do I have any regrets? am I at peace with myself and my surrounding if I have to leave earth now? Surprisingly, I am at peace - of course, there are many more experiences that I wish to have had but I have done pretty well so far. I do what I love doing all the time - which is yoga. I have made choices that landed me on the high moral ground which seem to be a rather lonely place but it sure is peaceful - I have no guilty conscience and have done no harm (at least intentionally) to others. I am ok if I do have to breathe my last breath as a physical being and very thankful for all the experiences that I have had and the people that I have met along the way.

This morning I made it to the doctor's office - very calm (true to my personality). The doctor checked me out and assured me that the lump is in an area where he wouldn't be too concern with. So, for now - I am good (at least in terms of my health) and hopefully continue my journey in life - experiencing new things and loving myself more and more as each day goes by. [Damn - I look pretty hot in lingerie - haha]